It has been a long time since I have posted here. It isn’t because I have done nothing, but because my life has been so very full.
In the last year I have learned to carve spoons, spin wool, and tan hides. I have built barns and started cleaning up my old garden space so I can plant this spring. I have worked endlessly around the farm. My house is almost done being remodeled. But most importantly, I have been loving my life.
I don’t think there is anything more important than loving life. No matter where we are, I think that should be our goal. When I go to my employment, I work with people I adore. I run the farm with my partner/daughter who works as well as I do and the jobs become fun. I square dance with people that are loving and fun to be around. And life is very satisfying.
Why should it be any other way?
Why work a job we hate, with people we can’t stand? For the money? There has to be other ways. For retirement? I have heard of many people who die shortly after that…..and never live in the meantime. For status? I don’t want to stress about impressing people who don’t care a bit for me. I quit jobs I couldn’t stand to become self-employed. It was a scary jump, but I only have one life and I will not give that up for something I hate.
Why do we tolerate the unrest and unloving atmosphere in our home? Why do we sit and stare at a screen for hours to loose ourselves in the life of someone else? I tried to make relationships work , but it really does take two so I cleaned house and became single while starting to take care of loving myself. I have a ways to go, but it had to start someplace.
Fear has a way of stopping us. Keeping us locked in the known world. Sometimes the pain is tolerated only because we are afraid of change. I decided a few years ago to stop living like that. And I do not regret it.
What if I fail? Well…….I will step up and try again. Fail again? Oh well…….. It is all a learning curve. I would want it no other way.
I have one life. Only one. I will no longer trade my precious life for things that I despise. And that is the best decision that I think I have ever made because my life is full of satisfaction and peace. And work that I enjoy.